I’ve had an on/off relationship with blogging ever since I started in 2016, and it has been so bloody frustrating ever since I signed up to WordPress. As much as I love it, I become too overwhelmed with the hard work blogging consists of for very little recognition – resulting in the ‘giving up’ mentality bloggers are often faced with. I do often wonder why I struggle to keep up with everyone else, frequently fighting with the thought I’m not cut out for the blogger life. But I think each time, I’ve had a burn out.
Sticking at things is something I regularly struggle with – I’ve become a vegetarian over 100x. I give it my best shot for about two days, and then forget all about it. However, blogging has always been different. I really do give it my best shot, however my mind is always running away from me and I spend hours and hours writing, editing, reading and checking my never growing blog statistics. I guess you could say that when I’m at my highest point blog wise, it takes over my life – which isn’t too enjoyable, to be honest.
As soon as I wake up, I’m either looking at my blog, reading someone else’s or writing up an idea I had during my sleep, throughout the afternoon I write up as much as I possibly can, during the evening I post, and right before bedtime – the ideas pour in, and my 10pm bedtime is often 2am.
The issue with me, is I don’t have the capability to switch off. When I’m in my blogging element, which has been throughout the whole of this month, I don’t stop. My mind just can’t switch off, and if it does, I’m searching for inspiration from my favourite bloggers. As soon as I put my laptop down, I struggle to keep away from the notes on my phone and I’m always itching to do something that will benefit my blog. I’m not doing my head any good, or my eyes for that matter and they’re bad enough already.
Things will have to change from February onwards. Daily blogging has been so much fun and a challenge I’ll most likely do again, but suffering from a burn out or mental block seems inevitable. I need to learn to not feel guilty if I don’t get a blog post out on the days I said I should, or taking a few days away from writing in order to give my brain a rest. It seems ridiculous, I know. I’m at the very bottom of the pile of thousands of bloggers and I’m yet to receive any email from a company asking to work with me – but in my head, it’s fun having a hobby that seems like work, especially whilst I’m unemployed and travelling.
I think it’s amazing to have a goal and to work on something you are incredibly passionate about. Right now, this little blog is my pride and joy and it’s one of the only things that is keeping me doing on the harder days being away from home. However like most things, balance is key, and I’m currently working on finding that balance. Travelling, writing, publishing, editing and spending time with Jack are all things I need to find a balance in. When I figure out how to get that balance, I’ll let you in.
However I do believe that hard work does eventually pay off, so maybe being a blog addict isn’t too bad after all?